Kim
Ok, so much for blogging about my progress. Well, I guess I have been, because I haven't been doing very well. I've been trying to eat well, but it gets difficult to do when you're in work for between 8 and 12 hours 5/6 days a week. The way my shifts are set out it's been difficult to fit my workouts in, so I've missed several of them. Then I get disheartened and I start again, so effectively I'm getting nowhere.
So I'm taking this route instead. I keep going through the workouts and trying to do them in the mornings. This way i have to get to the end of the program eventually. I'm still working on the eating thing. I try and eat healthily, but it's so expensive to follow those exercise diet plans. I'm following my own for now I think and then when I start round 2 (if I ever complete round 1...) then I'll try and follow the plan then. Hopefully in NC I'll have a steady job and be able to plan things more effectively.
I've also had a bit of flu this week. Nothing too bad and it seems to be heading out, but it's enough to make my head feel like it's going to explode and ache everywhere. :S
I'm still not well but I figured I'd try some yoga this morning. Bad idea. I didn't even make it halfway through the workout. I'm not really sure whether to count it or not. I did try, but sweaty hands and feet make it extremely difficult to grip the yoga mat and therefore I'm not holding the positions correctly, so is it really worth carrying on?
So I'm going to shower and chill a bit before I start work at 3. I'll start again tomorrow with Legs and back :)
xx
Kim
Over the past few months, I have let my diet slip, I've let me exercise slip and I've become pretty lazy, and it's showing. I'm determined to feel good and look good and to do that I have to make some pretty big changes. I keep trying, and then slipping and I've realised I really need to get me head in the game for this to work.
Today is my first day off work in about nine days so I figure here is a pretty good day to start. I've had a good sleep and I'm motivated! I want to work out, but I should have gotten up earlier to do it. My roommates will be up and about soon and Sunday is their lazy day, so I don't want to get in the way of that. They don't get much time together. Perhaps they'll go out to lunch or something and I can sneak in a core synergistics session.
I'm going to be following the P90X program and the recommended diet, and hopefully running as well. I figure I literally have nothing else to do so I may as well spend my time exercising and not being lazy. I'm over it.
So for today, I'm planning a core synergisitcs work out, no running and good foods. I'll have to head into town to do a 'big shop' so I better get on making my shopping lists!
Here goes nothing!
"Every accomplishment starts with the decision to try."
"You have to learn the rules of the game. And then you have to play better than anyone else."
-Albert Einstein
"Success is not final. Failure is not fatal; it's the courage to continue that counts."
-Winston Churchhill
"Determination is the wake-up call to the human will."
-Anthony Robbins
Kim
I think I've finally reached the point in my life where I can't take it any more. I've struggled internally with my weight for long time and tonight it's just become too much. I'm not huge. I'm a UK size 8. But somehow, I'm a flabby 8. I get bloated and I have some kind of issue with holding my weight on my hips.
I'm supposed to be going out tonight, it's my last day of exams and everyone on my course is going to be out. I bought a new outfit I thought I would look cute in, but when I got home and put it on I couldn't have been more mortified with the way I look. Bits poking out here and there, my skin is terrible recently. I was so disgusted with how I looked I pretty much just broke down crying on my bed.
I feel terrible letting everyone down, but if I went out I would have a horrible night and I would be so pre-occupied with how I look I think I would bring everyone else down. All I want to do right now is run.
Away from my problems, away from the fat, away from being so freaking lonely all the time. All I want right now is to be with Den, but that's over two months away. I need to get through this and I think the only way to do that is to concentrate on getting my weight down.
I'm going to run and figure out some sort of plan for exercise and keeping to it. I can't do this anymore. I'm 24 and I should be comfortable in my own skin, but it's suffocating me. I have to get out of it.
Something has to change, and it has to be me.
Kim
After five months of planning, and re-planning, and numerous frustrating changes to the event, The Wakefield Festival of Food, Drink and Rhubarb was a success. At least from the point of view of Enlivening events. :) My final year project is almost done. The event is complete, now just for the 15000 word evaluation due in, in six or seven weeks. Words can't describe how excited I am about that...
So for the next few weeks, even more so than is already true, my life will not be my own. So I'm definitely in the need of some serious motivation. And sleep. I'm hoping I can sleep properly the next few weeks, because this is going to be so much harder if not.
In three weeks, I'll be visiting Den in San Diego! I can't believe how quickly it's come around! 21 sleeps and I'll be falling asleep with my baby. I think he's going to be devastated when I fall straight to sleep after I get off the plane, haha. :) He'll still love me though so it's all good. I still can't believe how lucky I am to have found him. People search their whole lives to experience a moment of what we have. I can't wait to be with him again.
xx
Whatever you do will be significant,
but it is very important that you do it.
- Mahatma Ghandi
Green eyes,
you're the one I wanted to find.
And anyone who tried to deny you
must be out of their mind.
Because I came here with a load,
and it feels so much lighter
since I met you.
And honey you should know,
that I could never go on without you.
If you don't go after what you want, you'll never have it.
If you don't ask, the answer is always no.
If you don't step forward, you're always in the same place.
Keep your dreams alive.
Understand that to achieve anything requires
faith, and belief in yourself. Vision. Hard work.
Determination and dedication. Remember all
things are possible for those who believe.